Day 8

So i can't help but wonder why day 8 is so difficult. I didn't realize alcohol has so much sugar. Apparently now that my system is alcohol free I am having sugar withdrawals. I guess a candy bar a day won't hurt, for a while that is.......all in all, i'm feeling good, and i sleep now, not just pass out. onward to day 9.

t

Sober again??

Ok so I have been out of touch, out of shape, and just plain out. For the past few months I have been drinking a pint of vodka a day, sometimes more, and managing to be a functional alcoholic. Recently I have been feeling on my right side a very uncomfortable feeling that was the equivalent (to those who have been preggers) to a baby kicking you in the ribs. Only the kick would stay in one spot and not move. I thought maybe it was my boobs because i'm not wearing proper undergarments, or maybe just because I am slouching. Then I started to think that maybe I had a growth, but nothing appeared to be getting larger. September 22 (yes 6 days ago) It occurred to me to look up where my liver is (that anatomy class went out the window) and viola - exactly where the discomfort is. Of course I haven't been to the doctor, but I knew my liver was enlarged due to the alcohol and I knew that I needed to stop. So 6 days later, I am sober AGAIN. Something seems different this time. My close friend D tells me to go to AA - I suppose I should. I've done it many times, and i'm not ashamed, but something keeps me from going back. I think I have some soul searching to do. In the meantime, good night day 6 - onward to day 7.

T