I drove past the ABC store on pantops en route to Food Lion, 1 obstacle. I could still buy my absolute favorite wine in Food Lion......getting out of the car.....walking down the parking lot towards FL........BAM! I see my reflection in the window. Yes I have lost 14 pounds but I still waddle like a 7 month pregnant woman. I was reminded that with just one sip, even if I kept it to myself, I have let down me, you, God, and most of all ME.
I am thankful to be home right now, safe from any alcohol temptation. Thank you God for helping me through that fight. I fear the day will come that I slip, and if it happens will my support be gone? And you know what? That is the alcoholic in me asking you to say you will support me, giving me permission to slip. At least I'm able to admit that. Maybe it is time to go back to AA.
you will NEVER lose my support, but i will not give you permission to slip! that may sound harsh but i dont want you use that as an option. yes, it may happen but the question is how will you recover? we all fall down, but we get up! making a mistake is not the end. quitting is not an option for you! tell me something, does beating this mean you can never drink again? having struggled with this issue myself, i choose not to drink but i know many people who no longer struggle with the addiction, but have a healthy relationship in regards to alcohol. i also know many people who dont agree with that and say you can never drink again. going back to AA is not a bad idea. hang in there, girl!!!
ReplyDeleteIf I allow myself to drink, unless I can figure our what moderation means, I have to quit for good. I think that is the hardest part for me. Knowing that I can never drink again. Maybe after my next appointment I will have a gage on my liver and go from there. Quitting anything cold turkey sucks. Thanks Char! I love you for your words and your support. LOL I was thinking about having that verse you sent me tattooed on me somewhere :)
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