Day 8

So i can't help but wonder why day 8 is so difficult. I didn't realize alcohol has so much sugar. Apparently now that my system is alcohol free I am having sugar withdrawals. I guess a candy bar a day won't hurt, for a while that is.......all in all, i'm feeling good, and i sleep now, not just pass out. onward to day 9.

t

Sober again??

Ok so I have been out of touch, out of shape, and just plain out. For the past few months I have been drinking a pint of vodka a day, sometimes more, and managing to be a functional alcoholic. Recently I have been feeling on my right side a very uncomfortable feeling that was the equivalent (to those who have been preggers) to a baby kicking you in the ribs. Only the kick would stay in one spot and not move. I thought maybe it was my boobs because i'm not wearing proper undergarments, or maybe just because I am slouching. Then I started to think that maybe I had a growth, but nothing appeared to be getting larger. September 22 (yes 6 days ago) It occurred to me to look up where my liver is (that anatomy class went out the window) and viola - exactly where the discomfort is. Of course I haven't been to the doctor, but I knew my liver was enlarged due to the alcohol and I knew that I needed to stop. So 6 days later, I am sober AGAIN. Something seems different this time. My close friend D tells me to go to AA - I suppose I should. I've done it many times, and i'm not ashamed, but something keeps me from going back. I think I have some soul searching to do. In the meantime, good night day 6 - onward to day 7.

T

week 2

Well Friday was 7 days and I lost 4 pounds. Without exercise it seems futile, but I'm sticking to the diet with the exception of yesterday.....had WAY TOO MANY calories......One day at a time....

Day 6

Well the fact that I am on day 6 and writing in my blog tells me that i'm feeling positive. Yes, I need to be told that because I can talk myself out of anything. I haven't weighed myself yet, don't really want to. I figure when I start feeling 100% better then maybe I'll cross that bridge. I do know how much my starting weight is so that is all that matters for now. One day at a time....

made it through the weekend

Started diet on Friday, today is Monday. I made it through a lot of down time AND the receipt of 5 boxes of Girl Scout cookies. Each one of us ordered a box and I gave mine to Mike. I think I make be serious this time, but I have been serious before. So what will make this time different? I don't know, but I won't find out until I try. One day at a time....

Its all about self control

So I have gotten to the point that I can't sit at my desk without my back hurting. What have I done to get to this point? Let myself go. What am I going to do to fix it? Get back on the bandwagon! Today is day 2 of dieting. Where is my post from day 1? I was just hoping to make it this far.....Its morning time and i'm hungry and i'm home so that is a dangerous combination. The Theresa with no self control would go grab a Toaster Strudel. The Theresa typing will make some scrambled eggs. One day at a time......

2011 back to the usual

So today is 1/5/2011 and 4 out of those 5 days I have been sober. What's new, right? Its a new year so I have new year's resolutions. They are the same as always. Lose weight, quit drinking......I have really nothing to report except that I have gained all of my weight back and currently I am sober. One that is important though is that what I WANT. I WANT to stop drinking, even more so than losing weight. I will take it one day at a time and what will be will be, but I know that I am not defeated until I give up, and I now no that no matter what kind of lull I go through, that isn't an option. Just sayin......