Day 19 - The dreams have started

I just want to say that even though I didn't blog yesterday, I'm still sober. I feel like if I don't maintain a daily blog then people might think i've fallen off the wagon. That isn't the case, but I must have felt guilty about not sharing because I had a dream last night that I drank wine. It took me a minute when I woke up to realize if I actually was still sober. I remember in my dream thinking I wouldn't tell anyone and continue with my sobriety count as if nothing occurred. I have done this before in real life. It is the beginning of the end when that happens. I want to thank God that when I woke up it was just a dream. I really belive that not only am I sober because of my hepatitis, but that I have made a lifestyle change. I think that this is it. I can't get cocky though, because that is when my demons get in the way. I'm in a good place right now. I have lost 14 pounds, my double chin isn't so prominent :) and I eat better. I don't try to talk myself out of going to the gym. I'm not a gym rat, but I plan to go when I plan to go and I go! I am up to 20 minutes on the eliptical (spelling) and 4 laps around the track (1/4 mile) AND my goal now is not to lose weight but to be able to cross my legs like skinny people when they sit down! LOL this is funny but if I could do that again, I would be very happy. So anyway, i'm surviving and my struggle is having its reality checks here and there. I'm okay with that because without them I may not be able to do it. PEACE