Day 16 ~ This is really happening

There is nothing better than waking up in the morning without a struggle. Getting out of bed after the alarm going off one time, not hitting the snooze button. I'm finding that I really wasn't as functional as an active alcoholic as I thought. I would have trouble getting up after a night of drinking, sometimes being a zombie throughout the next day.

I got up this morning and went to church and joined my parents for breakfast. Haylie and I went to the gym and hung around town until dinner, again with my parents. Not only am I sober, I am able to follow a routine with meals. I was not just an alcoholic, but an alcoholic and binge eater. Before heading to the gym I really wanted a candy bar, but my mind (the positive thinking side) told me I'm only going to work off the calories of that candy bar when I could be working of calories from breakfast; a necessary meal of the day. In addition, at the mall Haylie wanted a strawberry smoothie. I was going to use that as an excuse for me to get an ice cream cone. That was after the gym and my mind (again, the positive thinking side) told me, your workout would be for nothing.

So you see, there is more to my alcoholism. I associate drinking with eating, and with being sober comes good health and weight loss. I have two goals now. Stay sober and lose weight.

FYI-I use alcoholic in the past tense form, but I want to make it very clear; I am an alcoholic, and I always will be, but I speak about it through past experiences. I hope that a year from now I will be calling myself a recovering alcoholic.