I know I should have started this 7 days ago, but better late than never. That is usually my way of acting. Always later, always the procrastinator.
I am 7 days sober. Why? Not because I want to be, not completely anyway. I have sat here, at my desk every one of these 7 days wishing for an evening of wine and slurred speach, spinning memories and blackouts. My name is Theresa and I am an alcoholic......
I recently found out, 5 days ago, that I have alcoholic hepatitis. Who me? YES ME! How does one do that to oneself? I tell ya, I never thought it would be me. I have known for a very long time that I have a drinking problem. I have been to AA meetings, online alcoholic help groups, church...I even sobered up for 7 months straight. Well it turns out, after 8 years of being almost consistantly a heavy drinker, I now have liver damage. I now have hepatitis.
So that brings me to day 7. It is Friday, February 12, and I am at work thinking about drinking. A normal Friday without child would consist of good food and drink, getting that awesome buzz that is only set off completely by smoking a cigarette. On this 7th day of my sobriety I am instead going to go home and figure out something else. I can make it through yet another day of sobriety......to be continued
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I am so proud of you Theresa. I know it has to be hard, but i also know that you are stronger then you realize. Because only the strongest of people would have made it through things youve been through. I want you to know that I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE my Resacup!! and if you ever ever EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR (did i say ever) need anything, day or night, CALL ME :) Thats what BFF Jills are for :)
ReplyDeleteI am so proud of you!! And I know you can do it if you put your mind to it. I can tell that you are changing and Im loving it. Keep up the great work and Im always here for you. I love you!
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