Well I have been at work all day....still here until 4:30. I just wanted to make sure I wrote in my "journal" before I get home which won't be until 11 or so tonight.
I was really surprised about all of the comments I received about putting myself out there which I really don't see it that way at all. If anyone asked me if I was an alcoholic I would absolutely admit it, but the problem I get is that most people don't believe me. So to lull the surprised out there, I am at peace with this acknowledgement. Now all I have to do is conquer it.
With that said, yesterday was quite tough mentally. I did a lot of thinking about going home and drinking. I knew I couldn't but I was scared that I would. I woke up this morning after having a dream about drinking. I remember in my dream thinking that I couldn't remember drinking but I had been told that I was drunk. The last time I woke with such a relief was the time I stayed sober for 7 months. I hope this is a good sign.....day 8 to be cont.....
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Im so proud of you and Im always here if you need me. I have always had faith in you and still do . Keep up the great work :) <3
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